¹⁹ O people of Zion, who live in Jerusalem, you will weep no more. How gracious He will be when you cry for help! As soon as He hears, He will answer you. ²⁰ Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them. ²¹ Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it."

 

oh how i love the Lord!

is it not so true of this versE?

that even though how far we are away from Him, there is always a voice behind, saying "this is the way, walk it"

this night, it happened to my ex cell member. this boy. he cried for help finally.

and God was there to rescue him!

and though he had turned so far away from God, the minute he repented, God came to Him graciously

 

it is very very true...

Jesus captured my heart for one moment, for eternity.

his heart too was captivated.

one moment, for eternity!

Dear Love,

one year has passed..

mission trip, the miracles, the salvations, the wonders i have seen. the lessons i have learnt.. my heart He has touched. my spirit He has filled... will always remember the BO YIAT team!!! wilson, candice, kalis, kong ann, liying, ernest, jirin, xiaozhen, johnson, cherie, jialin and MYSELF! will always remember AH CHAN TEK, keow, and others..and the killing insect night...

YI camp..tammy being healed of deafness..and a time of fun and fun and anointing..whoah...and ever since, i love to see tammy and i love seeing the joy on her face!!!

christmas bash..remembering the drama team..damien, jun da, cheryl, alicia, me, munchung, stephanie, zhicheng, zijian and others who have helped out!..

 

nissi third has grown..and now we are working together as an area! as a body of Christ! i love all of u nissi 3!

 

one year after another..what can i say?

i can only say that The Holy Spirit has always been so faithful..oh God oh God..why?

ever since You captivated my heart, i have realised that You have never failed me..

you who do not believe in God, might wonder why i love Him whom i do not see..

He is just so wonderful..and marvellous. and Jesus is a prayer answering God.. He cares for u and i, and He reached out to us when He died there on the tree.

i do not see Him physically. but there is no such need to.

His miracles in my life, in others' and in thailand and singapore and how He died for me.....

is enough.

 

who says everything in this world must be seen?

who cares? He died for me.thats all i know.and ever since, my life has been changed! the power of His blood.

hey dear Jesus, if You were here right in front of me now, i want to hug You, and i want to give You a high five, and i want to bow before You and kiss Your feet..i want to tell You that Your work on the cross is not in vain, that i will try my best to work with the Holy Spirit You gave me.

for this year 2006, i really hope You would walk with me like never before... and that You would lead me away from evil..that i pledge to You Lord that i would fix my eyes on You.

and i hope You see my heart, and unveil it.remove anything unpleasing towards You..and lead me in the way everlasting.

 

sign off,

Sylvester.

 

 

i dun believe in posting on my personal life. as it suggests, its personal so why post right?

hahaha..but then... i believe in keeping beautiful memories down somewhere so that i wont forget them and when i look back, i will just smile

im nt someone who will keep a diary, so an online blog is the best.

so especially for tonite, i will blog on some personal stuff.

because these few days have been really great and fabulous.

 

yesterday , me and huijin went to Maris Stella high to usher in the END OF O LEVELS for daryl and my disciple.hahaha..it was so funny. the journey there was so perilous.raining and dangerous cab driver.haha.. and so we reached,and we waited patiently for my disciple,eugene and daryl to come out,by entertaining ourselves with a dumb game.then POK trick me by saying they came out, then make me and huijin panick.

then saw a mother mary statue and when i told kongsheng later on, he said the mary statue was even bigger than the Jesus statue.cute note.haha.

and so they came out.i could as if feel their JOY and excitement. it was jus like reliving the days when Olevels ended for me! haha..and from that moment on, we crapped so much..i did not know when we started and when we ended..all the way, we took fotos to commemorate this great moment of release.haha.. and then we met kongann and huat at aljunied.went to buy some drumsticks and in the end missed the busstop and so went to queensway.

on the way to aljunied, i tok to my disciple abt how God has been "actively" answering my prayers, and also staring weirdly at cedar gers school ppl..er..

OH YA ON THE WAY TO BUY DRUMSTICKS we shared Christ to a maris stella boy! hE ACCEPTED CHRIST ON BUS!!! whoah cool man....cool cool cool.

ok i sound like a dumb blogger now.but i dun care.haha..jus wanna keep it down so i wont forget.

then on the way to queensway, WE SHARED TO A CHINA BOY! he din have money to pay for his bus fare, and i paid for hiM!!!! and I SHARED WITH HIM!!! HE was open to CHRIST!!!!!!!!!!!!! i told him to go home pray! 

GOD IS SO GOOD. WHY WHY WHY!!! i love God man.hahaha..such  a crazy blog post.

and so we spent a long time at Miz29, looking at skateboard shoes and shirts and stuff.really itch my legs to skate again.but i think nah.i will jus stop there as it is.not pro too.haha..and so we went to eat mac, where i argued with kongann abt some stuff till my disciple had to say"cut it out now"haha.it was jus a dumb nite la. then i stole all their membership points.haha..and i started to shout and exclaim what a rarity it is to see kongann and kongsheng and daryl out SO LATE! and with their parents' approval!

and we went to town to watch a late nite movie SKY HIGH AGAIN,with their parents' full knowledge and approval for the first time!

and we went to daryl's house, played tony hawks on ps 2. cool man..reminds me of the times in their malaysia home.....playing with yoketin, eat and sleep play and sleep and need for speed underground.

and then we went to a real fun place behind daryl's house.and we played games like..OH..OHOHOH/..GOSH....GOSH..GRASS!!!!! and fainted, and turning into werewolves...and doing dumb stuff like fainting at the sight of trees.....haha..so dumb..and pretending to see things and seeing a dancing light and running away.

then we went supper for prata near daryl's house, and i was so surprised it was so NEAR MY AUNTY'S HOUSE.and then huijin and daryl started reliving their ROSYTHIAN PRIMARY SCHOOL MEMORIES..sick.haha.

and i concuss immediately when we reached home.and they continued to play ps2 until 6am.sick.haha..and next morning, we played WWE ON PPS2..cool man..we smack the referee like mad, and i smack KongAnn's dunno which character, and kongsheng's stonecold and huijin's jeff hardy and daryl's stacy.dumb.

ok thats it..all down. hee..i wan to look back at it and SMILE ONE DAY!

thank God for giving me the best ppl and joy on earth.

i'm living for You, and the world will know You are true.

i'm gonna shine Your Light in the darkest place.

i will go for You.

nothing will stand in my way.

teach me God Your Holy ways.

 

mission trip is coming...so excited.

let me list the prayers God answered me recently.

I prayed that i would not face difficulties when i tell my lecturers and project mates abt mission trip. i prayed EVERY NIGHT before school started. He poured His favour on me. Not much workload during the weeks i'm in Thailand. Lecturers were not very harsh with me. my project mates were alright.

i prayed today that if God-allowing, that He would allow me to go to the FULL missiontrip training, becos my school was supposed to end at 6pm, which means i would miss abt 45 min of the training. AND MY LESSONS ENDED AT 430pm.!!! not only could i attend the training, i reached there early!!!

i prayed for funds for my mission trip. and this very kind father of one of my dear cell members sponsored me, and blessed me with the money.

i prayed for my mom that she would go back to church. she did last week!

i prayed for my cell members to grow in the Lord. i am seeing change!

i prayed for my disciple not to go overstressed, and to tide over the O levels! He did! and he is doing fine and well!!!! im so proud of him. he even told me, he was quite relax, yet not complacent. as long as he did his best man.

i prayed for a conflict with a brother in christ.and it was resolved.like almost immediately when we saw each other.

i prayed that i would be able to control my anger too towards my family members. i am able to do so easier now...

i prayed a simple prayer for God to stop my lecturer from showing a video clip showing nudity. and He even answered me! the video clip had some problems, and my lecturer ended up playing an animation video clip. PRAISE HIM!

Jesus Jesus, how much can i repay You? what can i do for You? what can i say about You? where can i put my face? when will i be able to thank You face to face?

why are You so good to me? Your everlasting love and mercies. no one can comprehend fully.

He is a Living God. not a dead god. not one of wood or silver or gold. in heaven and earth enthroned.

i prayed for my disciple to grow, and be used by God. he is the ATL for this missiontrip! im proud of him in a Godly way! ohman..haha. and his attitude is improving.

im still praying for my sister's and brother's salvation almost every night.

sometimes, i grow weary in prayer. but i still pray. other nights, i cry out to God for their souls. sometimes, i trust Him that He would do something great. and other times, i wait patiently.

no matter how much my siblings will laugh at me, or ignore me, or jus push me aside as plain nonsensical, i would still pray for them, i would still await the day God's glory would fall upon them. though they do not understand the Agape Love of God yet, i am sure one day they would. i would live for Him, until they know He's true.

i love Him so much. really.

i thank God so many times i wanted to let go of Him, He held me on. the many times i was clinging onto the Cross, the many times i was fading away, He was there to carry me.

i can die for His cause.

early in the morning, i would praise Your Name.

late at night, i would seek Your face.

 

through 3 years of being a full-time Christian with indisputable ups and downs, i have come to realise one thing.

that Jesus Christ and His Cross is one last thing i would give up on.

deep down in my heart, i know.

i know that Jesus Christ is real. not because of what people said, but because of what i myself have heard from Christ, the Saviour of my soul.

i have seen His marvellous works, in my life, in the mission field, in others' lives.

even if one day men fail me, my heart and body fail me, i would still lift His Name up. i would still love Him like i should, like i was made for, for i was made to worship Him alone.

it is not great faith im talking about. im not boasting, but one thing i want to boast, is the Love of Christ that compels me, that propels me to loving Him back too.

i have got no choice!

i have nothing more i can do. i have nothing more i can say, than just to love Him, and adore Him, and to worship Him.

everytime i fall, everytime i sinned, everytime i disobeyed, He still washes me clean. He still picks me up and shelter me under His wings. everytime i do His works, He honours me. everytime i'm down, He tests me just so He wants me to score high. everytime.

all He does, He does it all for me.

and you.

remember Him all your life. you might stray away from Him, you might be distracted, you might be on the verge of falling away, you might feel discouraged, you might feel crushed, and beaten. you might feel depressed, that no one cares, you might be so hurt.

but Him alone on the Cross suffering in silence in pain, is more than enough to assure you, that He understands.

He does. He came to suffer like you and i.

He would know.

your every tear, He keeps a record. your every hair on your head, He counts.

o how amazing Thou Art!

 

all your days, i pray Christ's love would be inscribed on your spirit, soul, heart and mind.